A Toxic heart ❤ will always find it difficult to positively influence others because what it gives automatically pollutes the heart of others.
When we choose to sweep the negative issues of life that has affected our heart under the carpet instead of dealing with it by confessing it out to God and seeking for the right help, we cannot potentially bless people without hurting them or making them stay away from us.
We often choose the easy way out by masking ourselves with “I’ve got it all together or I’ve got it all figured out clothing” Or we choose to see other people as the enemy to our joy and peace and therefore we fight them by giving them the “I don’t care attitude” Because we don’t want to make ourselves Vulnerable in any way. And we try to find comfort in the misery of those that walked away from us or treated us the way we don’t like’. In addition, we try to confide in the right people by giving them the “HALF STORY” of what happened because we don’t want them to see the bad part we played in the whole situation, so that they don’t rightfully rebuke us. We try to make them get on our side so that they see the other people around us as the bad guys.
Well, from past experiences, I can confidently say that things don’t just start working all right except if we make ourselves Vulnerable by sweeping out all this Negative issues to God no matter how dirty and bad they may make us feel as a children of God 1 John 1:9. When we cover our sins, God exposes them but when we confess it and expose it to God, The blood of Jesus blots it away from our record.
We confess them to God one by one by saying, God i lied against this person, God i refused to help out this person, God this person hurt me by subtly taking away what i thought belonged to me and for that i hated him or her for it but today, i choose to forgive because you have forgiven me even at worst. We equally have to make a conscious effort to ask for forgiveness from those we wrong and restitute James 5:16. this is often the hardest part; and therefore we need grace.
When we make conscious effort to walk with God and be a better us. Things gradually begin to come together for our good. I tell you that God will RIGHT those WRONGS and use it for His glory. You have to make a conscious effort to Change. Renew Your Mind with God.
I wish you all my brothers and sisters in Christ the very best in this race because i can guarantee you, it is not an easy one. We need Grace! Much ❤ and God bless.